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This has been a week full of questions for me.  I feel like I am in such a weird place….I had so many things mapped out for my life in the next few months.  Many were turned upside down with the news of the twins.   I rolled with it,  though…if God had it in  His plan for me, I could handle it.  I started making new plans.  Lots of them.  It was fun.  Then I got the call that the twins weren’t to be.  What?  Everything with the twins had fallen into place so beautifully….I never doubted for a minute that they were from God.  His hands were all over it.  But were they?  Why did this happen, then?  Was it something else?  Was He (painfully) preparing me for something else?  I don’t know.  I am sure I will in time, but for now I am left wondering.